A dream in the night! 10 thieves in your home. You want to kill them, throw them out of your house but you feel helpless & cover your face with the sheet/blanket, with the feeling of doing everything but you ending up with the 'helplessness'.
Every time you wanted to do something big & fell ill. Can't do anything but rest on bed. It irritates the soul out of you! That's helplessness.
Somebody's ill, somebody's dying & you want him/her to get fit/ stand & walk but that doesn't happen. You pray, you wish, you do everything right! You haven't done anything wrong still things are not in favour. PITY!! It's helpless you.
The car-the house-the clothes-the wishes, you wanted but couldn't put your hand on; gives you that bad feeling of helplessness!
A smooth drive, car at 90 km/hr, a speed breaker ahead, than you face a 8 ways crossing... where to go is the question???? You take a pause of your life & decide to follow one way, one route. Suddenly realizing that you are out of fuel!!!
Helpless you!!! Struggle with yourself!!! You made no mistake, and the car you were following is gone!!! The one you were following is gone!!!
Dreams now are hollow!
The one you wanted for life will be no more yours!!!
You deserved it/her/him/whatever but you can't get it/her/him simply for no reason!!!
It hits you! It kills you! It gives you the pain!!!
Sometimes what you want, you don't get it!! And all you get it is bloody helplessness!!
Helplessness is that bloody feeling which erodes the joy!!!
Helplessness is a feeling that no struggler would ever like to have!!!
Losing is a 'fuck all' thing, but helplessness is even worst!!!
I am feeling bloody helpless at present!
Turn down gives you same helpless feeling!! Turn down isn't a new thing for me but still why to me only?
Why you when you got it everything right from your end?? everything you could do, you did. But.....
Helplessness is a dead end you face, when you still haven't reached the destination!!! Helplessness is a struggle you can not fight!!! Helplessness is a midway of no conclusion!!!
With a feeling of helplessness, I pledge to make coming days better. I plan to watch 'Litle Zizou'! I plan to watch stand up comedy by Vir Das. I plan to tell my heart that it is nothing but 'Blessing in Disguise'! I'll put a fake cover of happiness till the real one arrives!!
With a mild headache in my ass.... :) ....I switch off. I kiss myself & fall down to sleep, to wake up to the new day's new sunshine!!! I don't want to run out of wit but headache's real!!
Rehne de aasma, zameen ki talaash kar!
Sab kuchh yahin hai, kahin aur talaash na kar!!!
Har Aarzu puri ho to jeene ka kya maza!
Jeene ke liye bas ek kami ki talaash kar!!! ......... Perfect
May you never face helplessness!!! (Unintentional sarcasm) Keep Giggling!!!
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