the search is on...

He sits back, aggression & passion at a new low which is totally strange to him. Nights have been swapped by days & vice-versa. Coz he's liking it being alone, staying awake late nights & sleeping or watching TV during day. Because he has no answers to people's most obvious questions which come up at this point of life.

Leaning back, deep thoughts follow deep breaths & he stands & walks with lot less emotions. Things aren't bad but they aren't good either. He has surrendered to neutral mode. Still loving to read things, whatever he gets from newspapers to magazines to blogs, love for sleep has also increased exponentially. Patience has always stayed far, he tries to get closer to it, but simply can't hug it. He can't hug patience, he can't. Need things to be turned around, need that li'l good to neutralize all that has happened.

Thank God there's IPL to give him some time pass.
Match 53: Mumbai Indians lost to Jaipur Royals.
Outcome : We Delhi Daredevils are into semi's.

Plunges on a chilled Pepsi can at 1.30 in the night, sipping it gives him nice soothing sensation. And he free falls on bed while listening 'I am with you' by Avril... the search is on... the prayers are on...